Happy and Sad...@.@ (dated 27/10/2010)

After so many months of missing/thinking auntie, she finally called me yesterday... ^0^ She is now at home resting after some many months of busying... She brought me a bad news with her.... Her mum had died 1 month ago... I remembered seeing her mum on new year... It was only bout 9 months ago and at that moment she was as fit as fiddle... I felt sad bout that but I still hope auntie don't grieve too much... I believed her mum wants her to be happy always... ^_^

Well, enough of the sad thing, now back to the happy thing... But... what happy things I have to share lei?... Actually other than auntie called me as a surprise and happy thing... I can't think of anything else that happen around me... Working for me is not very smooth now.... School holidays coming and I still haven't thought of a way to earn more money to cover my monthly expenses.....

Haiz,...... really headache thinking of this.... :-S

crying.... crying... crying.... crying.... crying....crying... crying... crying.... crying.... crying... crying... crying....

4-month after auntie left... (dated 11/10/2010)

My bb is now 5-month-old. Next Mon he'll be going back to hosp to hv his normal check-up. Sound strange but whenever he's bout to hv his check-up, he falls sick...

He's now 5-month-old, meaning he's sick for every month (5 months!!!!!!!!!!) Seeing him so sick, makes me feel heartache... But I can do nothing to it except give him more water and rest... My elder son is sick as well... Whenever he is sick, he tends to be a bit 'manja'... Sometimes when I'm busy, frankly say, I hate to hear him crying over small things or playing tantrum... But I can understand why he's like that...

Now's October, I wonder what's auntie been doing and is she fine.... To my calculation as she told me last time, she should be working right now.. She will only be free during Nov/Dec... I hope I manage to put aside some time for visiting her by then...

These few weeks, my emotion is unpredictable.. Quite moody... Quite... depressed... Maybe some pressure is pressing me hard till I hardly breathe and took rest... Well, I hope these kind of feelings will disappear soon...

My 1st Attempt Baking Cupcakes 0(n_n)0 (dated 08/10/10)

Hoo..Hoo... Since my son and my niece loved eating cakes so much, I decided to learn to bake some. And since my niece is allergy to milk and eggs... I've to rack my brain and search high and low for the substitute ingredients...

However, since I'm just a beginner, I actually don't know what can these ingredients be replaced with... @.@ So, in the end, I use water instead of milk and egg yolk only instead of whole eggs...

For the 1st attempt, I gave myself 60-70 marks (considering a success ^^) Other than a bit too sweet and oily, everything's good (This is the comment/feedback from my hubby). My son and niece simply loved it and finished it in no time n_n

I hope that next time when I try baking some cupcakes, it'll be better than this time ^^

 

Oh... yesterday (10/10/10), I tried baking the Milo cupcakes again.. This time it's not too sweet and oily, but it's too thin in flavour (not sweet enough) and a bit dry... @.@

But something cheered me. My small son, he finally managed to flip over, yeah... n_n Well done, Beibei... keep it up ^^

Sunny, Rainy, Cloudy... Weather changes... =S (dated 01/10/10)

These few days, my temper is like weather... Sometimes sunny, sometimes rainy, sometimes cloudy and sometimes thunderstorm...

Even myself, I don't know why!!! Maybe it's because of pressure... maybe it's because of the true weather is really..... unpredictable... People will face pressure all the times. When pressure comes, they tend to be temperamental and I guess the pressure now comes knocking at my doorstep...

Which pressure is the most hateful of all? To me, I think it's living pressure.... Working pressure -> can be solved once the work is done. Family pressure -> after communication and understanding, mutual trust gained, everything's fine. Living pressure -> ???? can't think of a suitable solution currently... Perhaps, we have to be contented in life (), then only we won't feel pressurized ().

Easier said than done... In current society, without sufficient "capital" to support whole family, how to live in contentment? I would very much love to live in contentment... but currently, I can only say "NO"...

I hope in future, I can proudly say "YES" and I hope that day won't be too far away from me...

Today's weather forecast: Morning    -> thunderstorm (frustrated)
                                        Afternoon -> cloudy (moody)
                                        Evening    -> cloudy (moody)
                                        Night       -> sunny (happy)

p/s: Today is Children's Day. Happy Children's Day to my Baobao & Beibei =)