Regardless where I will be, all these memories filled my life. Be it a happy one, a sad one, an exciting one, etc, it's all part of my life that I will always cherished...❤
Finally, it's school holidays for the kids. Finally, it's the final year of BaoBao in his kindergarten life and soon he'll move to another step of his life -> Primary School... My sons are moving forward, am I doing the same thing as well??... I hope I'm but I don't know actually...
Well, I did feel that the time is moving too fast. Too fast that I could still remember how my little BaoBao was when he was just born, how he tortured the 2 of us (me and my hubby) that we couldn't sleep well every night, how adorable he was and how naught he was.... =)
It was all just like the happening of yesterday but it was actually 6 years ago... Next year, he will be in Primary One. I hope everything will be fine to him and he can get used to that kind of life.
As for BeiBei, happy or not, worried or not, scary or not, 1 year passes. He actually made it himself to school even though till now he still likes to cling onto me. Every time he goes to school, I'll have to see his watery eyes but he made it... =)
He can tell me stories of his school life, he can demonstrate many things that he learnt at school to me and I can see that he quite enjoying it. However, he's still depend on me. Every time going to a new place or school, he will definitely said 'Mummy, I want you'... I want you too, my dear son. I always do =)
I hope the best for my sons and I do hope they will live in healthy and blissful always. Love you, sons...❤ =)
Every year when it comes to year end, my feeling will drop to the lowest... It seems to me that whenever it comes to the end of year, my feeling will be in this way and it had been liked this since I dropped myself from proper working life to an unstable working life... I once saw a phrase "do you live to eat, or eat to live?" Frankly said, I wasn't really quite sure of this myself as years passed by. I began to feel depressed and confused. I didn't know what to do and I can't see anything clearly in front of me. It's just like a blurred vision and a blank mind, roaming around aimlessly thinking of nothing but what to do in future... Many had once asked me whether this is all worth it. To my kids, it's worth it. At least I grow with them. I see their happy faces every day, I play with them every day, I learn with them every day... However, nothing lasts. The same goes to these happy moments. Soon my kids will go to school. What I did before will now have to change. How to change? Changing from working in the afternoon to morning? Will anyone hire me after so long that I've left the circle for such a long time? What about my students? Continue teaching them as part time? How will I have to adjust my time for that? What about my kids? Will I have the time for them?...feeling dejected... totally defeated and don't know what I should do... Sometimes when it comes to choices in life, it is really very annoying. Why am I always in such a dilemma state? So what if I received a good offer from the employer? I will have to reject it eventually because of the timing. So tired, so torturing. How many times do I have to endure such disappointment? Why is it so hard to do something that we like and at the same time live our lives to the fullest? In the past, I could still try to convince myself that 'when the ship comes to the bridge, it will become straight naturally' - (a Chinese proverb: 船到桥头，自然直) Will it be the same this time or something else?
From a FB friend, "你是什麼人便會遇上什麼人；你是什麼人便會選擇什麼人。總是掛在嘴上的人生，就是你的人生，人總是很容易被自己說出的話所催眠。我多怕你總是掛在嘴上的許多抱怨，將會成為你所有的人生。" - "What kind of person you are, you will meet the same kind of people with the same attitude; what kind of person you are, you will choose to be with the same kind of people with the same thinking. The life that is always hanging around your mouth, will be your kind of life, people always fell for the words that they said out to hypnotize themselves. I'm fear for the every single complains that are constantly coming out from your mouth, will become your life in future." - I have this kind of fearing also...
A couple of days before, my music teacher lent me a book stating that it's a wonderful book and I'll love it. Initially, I was burdened by my job that I couldn't find time for it. However, after settling down with my job, I found time to read it and I must really admitted that I fell in love with the book once I started to read it. I just couldn't stop reading it and I was eager to find out the outcomes of the story and finally, I did =) I finished the book in 2-day time which was considered fast for me as I was still working. This book contains 226 pages, with 28 000 of words. Every wording inside touches my heart deep and I really feel the love of the couple that never ended. When I came to the last of the book, I was so emotionally touched. How envious I am to the couple of the story that I hope I can own this kind of endless love...❤ For those that haven't read this book and have always had a passion for romance story, I highly recommended this to you.
The story begins with Mr Noah Calhoun, an old man, reading to a woman in a nursing home. He tells her the following story:
Noah, 31, returns from World War II to his town of New Bern, North Carolina. He finishes restoring an antebellum-style house, after his father's death. Meanwhile Allie, 29, sees the house in the newspaper and decides to pay him a visit.
They are meeting, again, after a 14-year separation, which followed their brief but passionate summer romance when her family was visiting the town. They were separated by class, as she was the daughter of a wealthy family, and he worked as a laborer in a lumberyard then. Seeing each other brings on a flood of memories and strong emotions in both of them. They have dinner together and talk about their lives and the past. Allie learns that Noah had written letters to her, every day of one year, 365 letters after their breakup. She realizes that her mother must have intercepted his letters. They talk about what could have happened between them without her mother's interference. At the end of the night, Noah invites Allie to come back the next day and promises her a surprise. She decides to see him again. During this time, her fiancé, Lon, tries to reach her at the hotel. When Allie does not respond to his calls, he begins to worry.
The next day, Noah takes Allie on a canoe ride in a small lake where swans and geese swim. She is enchanted. On their way back, they are caught in a storm and end up soaked. When they return to his house, they talk again about how important they were to each other, and how their feelings have not changed. Noah and Allie share a kiss and make love.
Allie's mother shows up the next morning and gives Allie the letters from Noah. When her mother leaves, Allie is torn and has a decision to make. She knows she loves Noah, but she does not want to hurt Lon. Noah begs her to stay with him, but she decides to leave. She cries all the way back to the hotel and starts reading the letters her mother returned to her. At the hotel, her fiancé, Lon, is waiting in the lobby.
The man stops reading the story at this point, and tells the reader that he is reading to his wife, who suffers from Alzheimer's disease and does not recognize him. He explains that he is also ill, battling a third cancer, and suffering heart disease, kidney failure, and severe arthritis in his hands.
He resumes reading the story and describing their life together: her career as a famous painter, their children, growing old together, and finally the diagnosis of Alzheimer's. He had changed the names in the story to protect her, but he is Noah and she is Allie. They walk together and Allie, although she does not recognize him, says she might feel something for him.
That night they have dinner together. Referring to the story, she says that she thinks Allie chose Noah. Recognizing her husband, she tells him that she loves him. They embrace and talk, but after almost four hours, Allie fades and begins to panic and hallucinate. She forgets who Noah is again. A week later, after he had a stroke and recovered, Noah goes to Allie's room at night to see her. She remembered who he was, despite the Alzheimer's, and they lay together for the night.
In 1959, student Lucinda Embry hears whispers as she stares at the sun. Later, she writes a page of seemingly random numbers and adds it to her school's time capsule, set to be opened in 50 years.
In 2009, Caleb Koestler is a student at the same school. When the time capsule is opened, Caleb is supposed to read and write about some of the capsule's contents. He's given the page of numbers written by Lucinda. His widowed father Jonathan (Nicolas Cage), a professor of astrophysics at MIT, notices the numbers have a specific set of sequences referring to the times and locations of fatal disasters over the last 50 years, including 911012996 (the date and death toll of the 9/11 attacks). The last three sets of digits are dated in the immediate future.
In the following days, a car drives by the family home with two strangers. They give Caleb a small smooth stone. Caleb later dreams of one of the strange men, who points to the window showing the world on fire with burning animals running out from the forest.
Copy of Matthäus Merian's engraving of Ezekiel's "chariot vision" (1670)
Jonathan tracks down Lucinda's daughter Diana and granddaughter Abby. Though apprehensive and scared, Diana eventually decides to help Jonathan. She says that her mother used to hear voices and that the next date in the document, 19 October, was the day Lucinda always said Diana would die. Searching Lucinda's mobile home, they find pictures of the disasters she predicted, a copy of Matthäus Merian's engraving of Ezekiel's "chariot vision", and a pile of small smooth stones near Lucinda's bed. The last number in the document appears to be "33" but they notice that it is really "EE" written backwards. They figure out that EE also means "Everyone Else", representing a cataclysm that no one will escape.
Outside, more strangers walk up to the children waiting in the car. John drives them away only to have Abby say that the "whisper people" want her and Caleb to go with them.
The next day, John has a sudden revelation and rushes them to the MIT observatory, where he discovers that a massive solar flare will soon reach Earth, making it uninhabitable. Diana wants to hide in some caves. John reluctantly agrees at first, but Diana decides to take the children and heads for the caves without him. As Jonathan chases after them, he calls Diana and tries to persuade her against relying on the caves. He warns her that the solar flare will penetrate miles under ground.
While Diana stops for gas, the strangers take the children. Diana chases them but is broadsided by a truck. John arrives at the accident just as Diana dies, finding the small stone in Diana's hand. He goes back to Lucinda's mobile home, finding the children and the strangers waiting in a dry river bed covered with the stones. A space ship descends from the sky. John is refused entry but allows his son to leave with the strangers, who are revealed to be aliens. The ship departs with the children and a pair of rabbits, and a distant shot shows many similar vehicles leaving Earth.
The next morning the skies are on fire from the solar flare. John fights his way through the chaotic streets of Boston, arriving at his estranged father's home. They embrace as the solar flare burns away the atmosphere and incinerates the surface of the Earth, destroying all life on the planet.
Caleb and Abby are deposited by the aliens on an Earthlike planet. In the final scene they are seen running through a beautiful mountain field towards a giant white tree which resembles the tree of life.
This is a great movie that I never knew of it's existing until my brother showed me. It somehow makes me have the kind of feeling that if we still persist on hurting the earth, one day our lives will end up the way this movie ended. "Every ending is the beginning of something else..." such a profound phrase, yet so real... Conserve, preserve and cherish what we own now because we never know what will happen tomorrow. In today's newspaper it's all about the tragedy of the bus crashed at Genting Highlands. It was such a heart broken scene. May all the souls there rest in peace and may those who lost their beloved, be brave...
I've just updated my blog and I found that it's time for me to change a new look to my blog. So, using a day time, I found this wonderful website <<http://yummi11.pixnet.net/blog>> that provided lot of useful tools that I can use to beautify and blog...=)
For those that came to my blog before, will surely know the previous look of it. Now, I THINK that my blog looks brighter, colorful and I pretty much like it =)
Another.... hmm... I think the last I updated my blog is about 4 months ago??!! Wow, it's already August and what had I achieve so far? Well, I finally passed my Theory Grade 8, I'm attending classes to enrich myself and nothing else!!... June, I had gone travelling with my family to KL, Cameroon Highlands and Ipoh. Cameroon Highlands is not as cold as it used to be now. Ipoh, such a disappointment that I didn't manage to find what I wanted to. However, it was still a rewarding trip because I missed some but I also gained some =) KL, not much to talk about except BeiBei went swimming for the 1st time and it terrified him =P Coming to recent holidays, I went to Tanjung Piai with my family. The kids enjoyed the nature. They ran around happily and freely and that's what I wanted from them. Always happy. However, after the trip, BaoBao fall sick. BeiBei also fall sick... (fever, coughing, flu)... That's life. Nobody never fall sick, right? Future planning?? I really don't know... Students come and go, I can't think much and reluctant to think much of it. Just let nature takes its course. I believe when the time comes, I'll know what to do next.
Today is the 7th in Lunar Calendar which means Chinese Valentine Day. Wishes every couple in the world a happy valentine day.
Guess this is all for now. Really scare for year end to come...
It's been quite a while from now since I last updated my blog. All these while I had been doing a lot, thinking a lot but I don't think I had made any progress out of them and that's the pathetic part. =( January 2013 -> A new year to begin with. I attended a new music history class with my music teacher. I really did enjoy the lesson and I learnt a lot from there which made me felt that I am actually very ignorant. I only know the basic or maybe not even the most basic of it. From there, I enriched myself with more knowledge that I never knew and I enhanced myself with more researches that I could find from the Internet. If in the past when I heard Beethoven, I only knew his 'Fur Elise' but now, I knew a bit of his music, his life, his temper and more. However, not yet till 100% of it because I'm still trying to learn to appreciate western classical musics =P This month also, I received quite a number of students which made my house very full and dirty...I had to prepare a lot of materials for my teaching which I was most headache of because I would always miss out some students. However, I did receive some good news. I heard from my last year PMR student that he actually did quite well in his exam which was higher than my expectation in him. Congrats to him =) My Beibei started going to kindergarten with his brother as well. At first, he was really very reluctant to go but till now he had eventually got used to it and he actually enjoyed it. However, he did sometimes throwing some pathetic look to me when he was lazy or not feeling like going to school. I still wondered why he had such behaviour and attitude because his brother was never like this before. 2 different kids with 2 completely different temperamental, attitude, behaviour and thinking.... Quite headache also when have to deal with such kids... =3
February 2013 -> Almost every year of this month, all the Chinese are busy. Busy for what? Chinese New Year of course. Me no exception... Other than my routine to fulfill, I had to clean up my house bit by bit. I had to shop around with my kids to buy their new apparels. My mother's house was under renovation as well that I had to help around to clean the house and I had to make arrangement for our reunion dinner. This year, we had steamboat together. Everyone was enjoying the feast except my mother. She's always the wet blanket and a spoilsport. Another one that's missing was my brother-in-law. So, this year reunion, wasn't quite reunion at all... >=( March 2013 -> A very busy month to start with because all my students were preparing for examination. My Baobao was also preparing for exam. To his misfortune, he was sick. Terribly sick. To my surprise, he did quite well in his exam. I thought, he was sick. He couldn't think much or do much but he actually did quite well. {I am proud of you, son =)} After the exam, all of us (my students and I) started to feel relaxed and relief. But, just for this month. After the breaks, we would all going to sort things out quick by the end of May or in the middle of June for their PMR examination. Other than these PMR students, my UPSR students also had to get into the 'fuoco'... Great news that I received from my last year SPM student. Finally, he passed his BM and English. Congrats to him =) For my son's reward to do well in his exam, I brought him to Sushi King. So, we (mother and son) had a great feast together without the presence of his father and brother =) Afterwards, we went to the Book Fair at Plaza Pelangi. He bought himself a book that he liked. Just came back from Malacca. Oh my gosh!!! The weather was so harsh (I beginning to think of my students' poem - In the midst of hardship... hehehe) How can we endure it without the invention of 'air-conditioning'? Really, a big thank to the person who invented this very useful electrical appliance... April 2013 -> It's today and it's April's fool. My students tried to trick me but I'm too clever for them =P Hoping that everything in my life will be smoother and I hope all my students will be able to achieve what they aim for. I had my own things that I wished to fulfill as well and I do hope I will be able to do that. Hope my lucky lady is around me and I hope everything that I hope to fulfill will get in place soon because I fear 'too late'... Many in our lives that, some things can be waited but there are also some things that can't...
