Departure... Forever...

It's been since 2 months I last updated my blog. Many had happened all along but the most heartfelt painstaking incident was the depart of my beloved father...

This happened just 2 weeks ago but the memory is still fresh... I do still miss him but... His depart is a relief for him and for us. It's very painful to see him continue with his life fighting for the illness he contracted...

My only hope is that he is getting well in his after-life world... Miss you, dad...

Wunderkinder by Markus Rosenmueller...❤

Yesterday (28/09/12), I woke up early to watch a movie titled 'Wunderkinder' that I had downloaded not long ago (M'sia doesn't screen this kind of movie). Set in 1941, Wunderkinder is a touching movie about a friendship formed through a love and passion for music between three music prodigies (Wunderkinder(plural form) means child prodigy in German): a German girl, Hanna Reich (Mathilda Adamik), and two Jewish Ukrainians, Larissa Brodsky (Imogen Burrell) and Abrascha Kaplan (Elin Kolev). As the Germans invaded the Soviet Union, the children’s families were torn apart and their friendship was put to the test.

Wunderkinder is also a movie dedicated to the 1.6 million Jewish children who were killed during World War II. The director was Markus Rosenmueller who has worked mainly in television and his rather pedestrian and predictable approach somewhat undermines the power of the story. It is an interesting situation, these people caught on the varying tides of war, and ultimately a tragic one.

The movie begins in the present day. Hanna, as a professional violinist, is about to embark on her farewell tour. When she finishes rehearsal for the day, she receives a heart-breaking package. As Hanna explains the significance of the package to her visiting grand-daughter, so begins the movie proper.

At first, the Ukrainian children do not want to be friends with Hanna, and her parents must pay Larissa’s and Abrascha’s parents to organise a group practice. But slowly, their love for music unites the children and they form a bond that even the cruellest Colonel Schartow cannot break. As the situation worsens, the children’s parents struggle to choose between keeping their family safe, or giving their children what they want—which is, simply, to make music with their best friends.

Kolev as Abrascha is the real star—a prodigy in real life, he actually played every note himself. Adamik and Burrell also perform well, both musically and theatrically. The star-studded adult cast are Kai Wiesinger, Gudrun Landgrebe, Konstantin Wecker, Gedeon Burkhard, Michael Mendl, and Natalia Avelon.

Wunderkinder is intended to be a family film, especially targeting 12- and 13-year-old audiences. I see no gratuitous violence as war movie usually had and I hear no coarse language (Ern, well I don't know German language but at least I don't see any coarse language written in the subtitles).

The soundtrack was not overbearing. The children’s friendship song is also the theme song for the film. I like the song very much as if love at first sight but till now I still haven't able to find the music score... The name of the theme song is called 'Larissas Lied' (Anyone has the music sheet, can you please send it to me? Million thanks!) Overall, Wunderkinder, which won awards in film festivals in Jerusalem and Copenhagen in 2011, is a touching movie with only minor details to niggle at.

This is the movie trailer:

This is the theme song - the children's friendship song (Larissas Lied):

Music History Class...❤

It's been almost about 2 to 3 months since I was forced to stop my piano practical because my teacher was identified pregnant...

Frankly said, I didn't like the idea of not being able to attend classes and stay idling around. I do practice the pieces on my own but I don't like the idea of not having someone to tell me where my faults laid.

However, now I am happy again because I'm attending classes again =) Although I'm not learning piano practical but I'm still happy to learn something related with music - The History of Music. I'm still new thou. There is still a lot for me to learn and of course through the class, I did learn a lot =) I suddenly felt myself very ignorant to music, self-abased and ...

Anyway, my 1st assignment - Dmitri Shostakovich. Still gathering information about him and I really very like his '2nd Waltz from Suite No. 2 for Jazz Orchestra' and 'The Godfly'. Beautiful music =3 (However, the more depth I do, I somehow felt I have digress... Is this the present of unconfident??)

Looking at Mr. Shostakovich music sheet, I was totally blank... I don't know how to interpret it. I only know how to play the music... So, I'm really very poor. I don't know music at all... So, I have to work really very hard to gain more knowledge about the thing I'm doing and not only knowing the surface of things. If I really like it, I have to really get the depth of it.

OK, I will try my best although I'm still feeling self-abased especially when the present students around are all very outstanding... (I think I'm the poorest in the class...) But, I will try. Never try, never know... rite??
Wish me luck =3

Theory Exam V.S. Olympics Opening Ceremony...

Yesterday (27/7/12) I was intended to burn midnight oil to do my theory exam revision... But due to tiredness, I dozed off halfway...



This early morning (4am), I woke up fresh to continue my battle but I suddenly remembered there was Olympics Opening Ceremony on TV... So, yeap, I was distracted... Hmmm.... (I dozed off halfway watching this also not because I'm tired but... you know =P)

The parts that this ceremony attracted me most started from the industrial revolution till Mr. Bean part... Others.... Well, I dozed off.... But in my dream, I seem to hear 'Hey Jude'... A song I liked... =)

Here are some of the pictures I liked... =)

The opening ceremony has begun. Current segment is titled 'Pandemonium' and is backed by some 965 drummers. It celebrates Britain's role as the birthplace of the Industrial Revolution.

JK Rowling, author of the Harry Potter series, reads from the opening paragraph of Peter Pan, while giant Voldemort makes an appearance at the London 2012 opening ceremony.

Mr Bean performed in an orchestra...

My 1st New Analogue Watch B-)

If I said I never wanted an analogue watch, I must be lying with my eyelids opened!!! All those analogue watches out there were so beautiful, how can I never had wanted to own one?!

Actually, I had had in mind to own one but due to my stupidity in reading an analogue watch, I always put off my mind of getting one... Not until today, after a word from a friend, I decided to put on one and trial for few days to see whether I'm still so stupid with analogue watch =P

Why I say I'm stupid with analogue watch? There is story behind this. 1st of all, my first watch that my mum bought me when I was in Primary 5, was a digital one. From that moment, I only knew how to look for the time, date and day through a digital watch. However, my alarm clock was an analogue one. One morning, actually not just one morning, it's almost every morning, I would look at the wrong time... Some more, analogue watch didn't display date and day which made me woke up on wrong day to prepare myself for school... =S

So, for the whole of my life till now, I'm wearing a digital one. But this time round, the urge for owning an analogue watch was just too strong, some more with some encouragements and the watch was simply too beautiful for me to reject... XD

Well, there is always a first time for everyone in their lives. So do I. So, this is my first time wearing an analogue watch with the hope that I'm not STUPID anymore with it. Bless me~~~

心情写照(3)...

这三天的心情,不上不下,但却又大起大落的... 真是既郁闷又烦躁啊!

星期天出新加坡探望我爸.说实话,我很开心我爸还活着,我还能和他庆祝生日, 但看到他的无奈和像似忧郁,有口难言的眼神,我好似心痛... 心痛的当下我差点忍不住,泪水都要夺眶而出.但, 我还是强忍的告诉自己不可以.爸爸看到了,会更难过的...

昨天和我弟弟跑了许多地方去解决他的琐碎事. 他...今天就要到一个人生地不熟的地方去工作.老实说,我还真有点舍不得... 或许因为我们姐弟三人很少分隔两地,尤其还要那么久吧! 希望我弟一切顺利,早日回来...

网上生意还真不容易做,但万事起头难.所以,我还在努力奋斗中.希望一切也能顺利,好起来.

其余的琐事就不提了.说了,会觉得累... 做人啊,还是偶尔要善待一下自己.懂得善待自己的人,活的也能开心点.... 人生已经很苦涩了,没必要让它苦下去...

Mixed Feeling... =o='

Open an online shop is really not as easy as one thinks it is... Indeed, you can always open a shop online easily, but who's your customers? How to attract potential customers to your shop? How to do business with others? How to compete with others when you happen to sell the same items as them???

=o=".... Thinking of these, make me headache, tired and despair... But, one thing for sure, I cannot give up halfway... Since I had started, I must and I will try to persist till the day I really feel very very tired and cannot move on. Maybe by then, even if I still want to continue but I don't have the energy to do so anymore...

Other than this, yesterday I just quarreled with my sister regarding my daddy and her son... Is money really so important than her own son's future? Is my daddy not worth to visit than her company dinner? We can always earn back the money we lost no matter how hard. How about her son's future? When it is ruined, can anyone turn back the time and save all this disaster? We only have one natural daddy and he's sick, don't know how long can he live. Celebrating his birthday with him, maybe for the last time, is it very hard? Company dinner, every year has. Even if you change company, there will still be there. Some more, from her, it seems like every 3 months got one...

Recently, one of my friend is reported pregnant. I'm actually happy for her but in the other hand, I'm also worried for her... May god bless her and her baby with good health and smooth processes throughout this whole pregnancy period...


One more thing, my brother is leaving soon to Brunei to work. I know he's old enough to take care of himself, but still I will worried since he can't always come back here frequently and maybe it'll take about half year before we can see him again... Take care, brother. If got anything, must contact us... Even got no problem, still must contact us to let us know your situation there...

Sometimes, I really think myself crazy... I am already very busy and occupied with my own things and problems and troubles, why do I still want to bother with other people's affair? Frankly said, that's really none of my business!!! But, conclusion, that's my character... I just can't simply put aside things or problems or troubles that's in front of me and I know it... However, I only care for those around me and I know them... I guess this is how I treat my friends... With sincerity even though will hurt...

My Appreciation...❤

My Appreciation...❤

Recently, I had been doing some online sales corresponding to Mother's Day. During that period, I did receive some comments/emails stating that the item that I sold was far quite expensive compared to others. Hence, I browsed through the websites that they provided.


Indeed, there were some differences. However, I found that in M'sia, the price stated for the items are mostly for the standard size pan and not the ocher deeper that I'm selling (of course, I also managed to find a few webs selling ocher deeper pan with much lower price as well.)


At the same time, I also came upon some websites stating that they had bought fake pans. After reading their articles, I immediately checked all the pans that I had purchased from my supplier and was relieved to find that all the pans were real. (So, I told those who left comments to me -> 1st, the price they stated was for the standard size pan. 2nd, I don't know where they got their stocks and I'm not sure whether the pan is real or fake but what I'm confirm with is mine is 100% real from Korea.)


Even though this had passed, I still browse through the websites just to find out why some of those online sellers can sell their pans/items at such low prices. In conclusion, I find that it was my source. I got the pans at a slight higher price than the others and that makes me need to raise the price a bit in order to gain profit. (Well, doing business is to get profit, right?)


Other than that is the shipping method. Maybe I'm quite lucky. Last Wednesday, I went to the custom to retrieve my stocks and the custom officers gave me very good advices. They told me that I should go for the normal shipping instead of speedy shipping. Although speedy shipping is fast but the fee is also very costly compared to normal shipping (Speedy shipping cost is twice or more than the cost of normal shipping. Shipping fee in M'sia will also be used to calculate the tax being imposed.) In short, no matter what method I used, I will eventually received my stocks. It is only the matter of time but the price gap is huge...


Frankly said, I'm still new to this online open market but through those few 'sales' days, I really learnt a lot of priceless experiences. So, at here, I sincerely thanked those who left comments to me to do some soul-searching. Now, I'm very actively finding more suppliers that can give me a very good price for the items I want to purchase so that I can also give 'my future customers' reasonable price. I'm also actively finding forwarding/freight/shipping company that can be trusted that can help me with the dealing at custom.


For those who have purchased items from me, a really big THANK U and HUG from me to you. Thanks for your support and I'll try to do better in future.


Till then, thanks again =]

Failed... again... =[

Yesterday when I went for piano lessons, I received a very bad news (at least to me, it was)... I failed my theory grade 8 again.... This was the 2nd time. I just can't wonder out where exactly is wrong... Last time at least I got 58 marks and that time I was terribly sick. This time round I only obtained 53 marks with a little flu and discomfort with me?!...

What was wrong actually? Getting older, so when taking exams I had phobia?? Oh no, that can't be and mustn't be... I still have my practical to go for... Only for theory, I already like this, then how am I going to take my practical exams??!!

Haiz, enough of all these... I have to try harder for next round at August... For that, I must pass if not I'm really feeling very... I believed in the whole exam hall, I'm the oldest... Sometimes, really feel very 'pai sei'...

I got lei... But still failed... Maybe not hard enough and not attentive enough... =[

Depression... Confusion...

Very soon, April will be gone and there comes a new month 'May'... It's all about exams before holidays, and it's all about stress before relax...

That's the cycle of my life every year that somehow makes me feeling a bit of tired, and a bit of 'don't know how to describe feelings...' This cycle has revolved me for the past 9 years and sometimes when I am in daze, I asked myself, is this what I want?

I don't feel tired of teaching of course because I like kids and I like teaching but... there is something that bothers me always and a lot... Well, I am just an ordinary person. So, like any other ordinary people all over the world, we have our own unsolved problems...

Some choose to travel to relax themselves and to enjoy themselves. Some just ignore the problems and pretend as if everything is under control but when it comes to a break point... illness comes after them. Some just take a nap to forget everything and so on...

I don't have the chance to travel much, so the first doesn't describe me. The later just fitted me well because somehow I am feeling as if I am going to fall apart soon... Is this the symptom of depression?? However, to others, I don't look like one of that. I am way far normal than that. 

So, I guess I am just too sentimental, too emotional. I am still able to control myself now. At least when I was feeling very very down, I tried to release myself by any methods that I can think of to do... Playing piano, playing violin, or simply just take a nap. Shopping?? No, this method will only make me more depressed...

I guess I just have to do something to make myself happier?? Well, I think all I need is a good rest... But there is still a lot that I want to do and have to do... Just what I want?? I am confused... really... haiz...

Busy days, Sleepless nights... Tiredness...

All these while, I'd been very very busy. Busy setting up my own online shop, busy finding wholesaler to provide me the items/products I'd been wanting, busy doing calculation because I'd capital limitation, etc...

All these thinking as well, made me having sleepless nights. I couldn't go to sleep unless I'd my things sorted out. No choice, my habit is like this. I must have all my things done before I can ease myself... This kind of person, very tired to be but I'm what I'm...

Other than this, I still have my own current job to take care of. I still have my kids to attend to and I have my own classes to attend... Even though I'm feeling very very tired now, maybe one day I'll collapse, I hope whatever that I did now will not gone in vain...

From Facebook, one friend posted "Do not give up, the beginning is always the hardest"... Yes, I remembered when I was still schooling, I always told myself "When there's a will, there's a way". Since now I have started, I should give it a hard try and never give up easily no matter how tired I'm now...

Let's pray and hope I'll be successful =]

心情写照(2)...

最近似乎想太多了, 因为想着想着,就开始觉得累了, 累了又开始胡思乱想, 想一些有的没的, 想人活着究竟是为了什么...

又或着是因为最近所面对的事多了, 找不到一个可以释放或发泄的方法, 所以开始胡思乱想...
也或许是因为某些事做了一段时间, 但还是没有收获或成果, 而感到迷惘, 不知所措...

是的, 我是个很普通, 很普通的人. 我当然会羡慕别人, 就算我知道哪样是没用的...
相信别人也一样一定有跌到过, 才会有今天的成果, 因此我坚持到现在...
可是现在, 我乱了. 我开始怀疑自己的能力...

有志者, 事一定竟成吗? 只要功夫深, 铁杵真的能磨成针吗? 许多鼓励的话, 我告诉自己不下上百回, 就算旁边的人不看好, 不支持, 不鼓励还要浇冷水, 我都坚持, 忍耐, 努力的去做... (sigh...)
不能不承认, 单薄的力量, 就算意志多坚定, 还是会觉得累, 会觉得无奈...

想放弃却又放不下, 想什么都不管又做不到, 我.... 到底想怎样? 很多道理, 我是知道的, 有些做了, 有些想做, 但做不到. 有些知道做的到,却不敢做. 是怕失望, 还是怕改变呢? 我不知道...

是呀, 肯与不肯... 我肯, 但没信心. 我肯, 但没勇气. 是因为时间久了, 信心和勇气都被磨掉了吗?...

Happycall Pan vs My Favourite Dish =]

     Recently, just bought a pan. So, I used this pan to try out my favourite Korean dish - spicy rice cake. Yummy, yummy... At first I thought I had to cook for quite some time before the rice cake became soften. However, I only take about 10 minutes to done with the whole process!

     This is really very convenient for me and I don't have to plan to wake up early whenever I want to cook something for my family. Now, I am trying to find time to try out other different dishes using this pan ;-P

心情写照。。。

好久都没写部落格了，好像也没用过华语来写部落格哦。。。

这几日来的心情似乎并不那么好。。。有些烦燥，有些郁闷，有些低落，有些忧郁。。。
是累了吧。。。还是不知道自己在忙些什么而感到茫然，不知所戳。。。

有的时候，真想不通自己做那么多事到底是为什么。。。 为家人？？为学生？？为自己？？
为家人，为学生但我感觉不到他们懂得我的努力和付出，当然我并不要求回报，但至少该有些感激或珍惜吧。。。他们给我的感觉是‘理所当然’的。。。（take for granted...)

为自己，我好像没留太多的时间给自己。。。当我终于休息时，我只感到累，想继续做自己的事，却总有一种‘力不从心’的感觉。。。

是借口，还是实话。。。 我说是实话，但旁人总会说是借口。。。
是因为不了解，还是不想了解。。。

（sigh...) 累累累。。。 我真的好累。。。

Feelings.... @_@"

This kind of scorched weather makes me feeling sick and dizzy...
All those occassions that cramped together make me feeling suffocated...
And all those troublesome complaints and businesses about money make me feeling vexed...

haiz, haiz, haiz,haiz, haiz.....