My Lucky Day...

Today is my birthday. Happy Birthday to myself and may all the wishes I wished for will all come true... (Hopefully ^^)~~~~~~

Two of my friends sent me their wishes (Thks San San, Thks Chai Ling ^^). Sounds like very pathetic. I got quite a number of friends but only two of them remembered this day... ='(

During this day, other than eating my birthday cake alone, I'm still alone =S. My hubby is sick, my sister and brother went to SG to work, my mommy is busy with the kids and my children are still young to help me celebrate...

Haiz, never mind about these... So long as my wishes will all come true. But will they really come true???...
Oops!!!! I forgot to capture my birthday cake photo!!! Now only left leftover......

yummy, yummy ^^

A month after auntie goes home...

Sometimes, I really do hope auntie is around. When I stay at home alone, I do miss her very very much. I still can see her images at my house doing this and doing that. When I felt stressful looking after my baby or bathing my baby, I would recall the scenes when she was around. I would say to myself, "if auntie is around, at this hour my baby will be with her", "if auntie is around, at this moment I would have finished eating and am resting now", "if auntie is around, at this time she must have been resting and watching television with me" and so on...

08/07/2010, I sent her a sms even though I knew she did not know how to open smses. In the message, I wrote:

“AUNTIE，你好吗？开工了吗？阿贝很好，我也很好，可是我们都很想念你哦！等我有空而你也在家的时候我们才去找你 SHOPPING，好吗？=）”

I hope this day will come soon. I can't wait to see auntie again...

Pathetic Friendship... @_@

Surfing Facebook, searching for old friends, browsing their friends' list make me stunned and I suddenly had a feeling of... pathetic!!

I wonder what kind of person am I in the past? A monster? An annoyance? A troublemaker? A spoilsport? ... etc?? I guessed... I must have been very hateful...

Their lists are all full with our schoolmates... Schoolmates that I also knew... They still keep in touch with each other... EXCEPT me...

I still think a lot of them actually. I do miss them but to my dismay, I guessed that is all only my wishful thoughts. Silly me... @_@ They might have totally forgotten about me. They might even ask who am I? Do I know you?...

Haiz, what can I say and do? I can only accept the reality and the fact that ... I am the Forgotten One!! Just like what my student wrote, "We would not have forever friends, neither do we have forever enemies"... I think I need to "See Open A Bit"... =(

20 days after auntie left...

20 days after auntie left.
I still missed her. I wonder what's she been doing lately? Has she started her next job? Everytime when I went out, I would think of her saying that she needs this, she needs that. This is the thing/food she wants to buy... Sometimes, I have the urge to buy the things for her. But when I realised I wasn't staying near her neither am I going to visit her, I told myself wait... Wait till year-end when I'm free and she is available first. Haiz, she's really like a mommy to me now... I think of her just like I think of my mother. I like her and love her, just like I like my mother... =S

My bb now is about 1 and a 1/2-month-old. He's really very cute @_@

When I looked at him, all my troubles and worries disappeared. It's really good to have him and his brother around.

But his brother is quite naughty nowadays. Maybe because of anxieties. The anxieties of fearing being ignored, being alone, being not loved...

Don't worry, my dear. You and your little brother are daddy and mommy's precious gifts from god. We will always love you =)

With 2 boys around, I'm still not quite adjusted to my time. Haiz, looks like I'll have to postpone my piano lesson till August...

Hopefully, I'll be ready by then. I don't wish to disappoint my piano teacher and I hope I'm ready to take the exam by next year...